Happy Excitement or Excited Happiness

I'm happy.  I'm excited.  The happiness is exciting and the excitement makes me happy.  These days I feel like a cloudy film has been removed from my eyes and I am able to see so many things that are awesome and inspiring and grand.  I'm not sure if it's that I've let go of many resentments and bad energy from the last 18 months or if it's because I've evolved a bit further into the real (authentic) me.  I notice so many things these days and the noticing brings on feelings of happiness and appreciation.  These things aren't necessarily new or life changing or once in a lifetime things although I'm sure there are indeed some of those things happening from time to time.  I'm more talking about the small everyday things that I couldn't see before or that I would see, but only for their surface value which many times I've allowed to be miniscule.  So here are a couple of examples, although there are many, many more and they fill my days and fill my heart with love and joy.

I was at my daughter's house yesterday.  There are some tall palm trees in someone's front yard a block or so from her house, which I need to drive by to get to her house.  When there is a slight breeze, the palm fronds gently sway and the glint of the sun in the moving foliage makes for an awesome, tied to nature, pick-me-up.  It's like a gift, one of nature's movies playing just for me.  No big deal in the grand scheme of things, but a source of happiness for which I am appreciative.

Clouds!  There's nothing quite as exciting than to see the clouds that signify monsoon season in this oppressively hot desert.  Clouds mean storms... dust storms, rain, lightning, wind and a drop in temperature.  The hope of experiencing the scents of a wet desert, the chance to photograph bolts of lightning, the knowledge that I can be safe and secure in a home filled with love while the storm exerts its force outside, that is happiness.  The anticipation of waiting to see if a storm develops from the clouds in the distance is exciting, and that makes me happy.

I am blessed.  :)