I spent some time reflecting today; actually for the past several days. This year has been amazing. It has had some very high highs and some extremely painful lows. So much has changed in my life this year. So much about me has changed. Looking back at all the crap that's been swirling around I must say that I'm very proud of me. And I'm very appreciative. Proud that I have kept my sanity, for the most part and appreciative that I have been shown how many wonderful friends I have and how much my family supports me.

One year ago, almost to the day, I welcomed someone into my house who would ultimately "cause" the end of my 20 year marriage. I can't say I'm sorry. Not exactly. I don't condone her behavior, nor that of my husband's. She, as it turns out, is an STD ladened skanky alcoholic slut. I know that sounds angry and bitter but it really isn't, that's really who/what she is. He's an ass. That's not bitter either, just fact. Anyway, here I am... waiting for my final court date so I can be single again.

There have been emotional ups and downs, and I'm sure that will continue for sometime. But I'm o.k. I'm really o.k. I look forward to my tomorrows. I'm not stuck in the past. I'm learning to let it all go. I'm content to deal with what is. I'm enjoying being in my happy place.

This past year has shown me many things. The best of which is that I have come to appreciate how awesome I am. And that kind of makes all the shitty parts of the last year so totally worth it.

Yea for me!!! I rock!!!