I keep getting the urge to write.  I have no idea what I want to write about and when I do happen upon an idea for some interesting subject matter I can't come up with the "best" way to write it, so I don't.  Back in the late 90's I was given a copy of "The Artists Way".  It's a lovely book about how to unlock the artist within.  I believe we are all artists in some way.  We all have a need to create.  Some of us just hide it or ignore it better than others.  The book outlined several exercises to help let the creativity out.  One of the exercises was to write for a set amount of time every day.  It wasn't an involved thing, maybe 15 minutes a day.  And the instructions were to write at the beginning of the day.  Immediately upon waking, get out your notebook and simply write whatever came to mind.  Words, ideas... anything.  I struggled with it because I couldn't just write, I had to write correctly and about things that I felt had at least an ounce of worth.  I know that wasn't the idea, but at the time that was the best I could do.  And as we see, I still have that problem.  I want to get to a place where I can just let the words flow.  A place where I can be happy with whatever my mind wants to put out there.  A place where I can trust my spirit to guide me wherever it wants me to go, even if my mere mortal self can't see any value in it.  I'm not sure this is the place to do it, and I'm not committing to resurrecting the exercise, but I'm at least thinking about it.  My life this year has done some crazy and yet amazing things.  I feel like I'm just about ready for a new adventure and am quite ready to completely let go of the old me.  I think I've grown up enough to know with everything that I am that I don't need to grow up if I don't want to.  Have a happy day everyone.