my irritation(s)

I'm irritated. Angry. Frustrated.

I feel like I keep spinning around in this quagmire of crap that makes little or no sense and I can't seem to stop myself and I don't even know where to begin.

I'm irritated that I seem to have lost my peace. For quite some time now I've existed mostly in a place of peace and happiness. That has all slipped from my grasp and I'm unable to locate it.

I'm irritated that I can't seem to regain my balance.

I'm desperately trying to learn how to deal with this devastation that I feel has been heaped upon me, but I don't know how. I don't know what lessons I'm missing and I don't know how to figure it all out.

I'm frustrated because I can't seem to quit cycling thru being frozen, numb, angry, frustrated, disappointed, hurt and confused.

I'm frustrated because I can't find a way out of the nightmare I was dragged into.

I'm angry because I can't find a way out of the consuming despair and heartache.

I'm angry because I haven't had an opportunity to stand up for myself and be heard. I haven't taken the opportunity to scream out all my hurt and frustration, to throw all the nasty comments I'm thinking at the target they're intended for.

I need the time and space required to work on me, to focus on me, to realize my personal power once again.

I want to see myself begin to heal.